Once again.. its been a while

So its not a secret that I suck at updating this blog. Which I have been so busy lately that I have forgotten to even begin to feel guilty about it...opps. Then it comes a time when I stumble upon a new great blog that I haven't read before and I think oh ya I have one of these. Then the itch starts and I think to myself why not start blogging again. Then I remember that I'm crazy busy and I don't have a funny, witty personality that everyone loves, nor do I wear skirts on a daily basis. Yet its about to be the start of a New Year, which always means New Years resolutions. Which usually includes posting on a regular basis. And hey, if a regular basis means every few months then I'm right on track. I once again have no idea if I am going to start posting again. Do I have that kind of time and energy to post again, or do I just want to enjoy my first year of university and all of the craziness that goes on there. Living in Rez has been such an interesting experience and I have grown and changed living alone and by alone I mean sharing a room with a roommate and living on a floor with 40 other 17- 20 year olds who are all at university to "study" and have a good time. (Don't get me wrong I am seriously there for the school, the social life is just a great added bonus). Just finishing finals is reminds me that I am for sure there to study my ass off, but hey it all worth it in the end right. Perhaps I will try to update more often, I always thought that this blog had to be a daily fashion blog kind of thing with a ton of readers but right now I might just be content with it being for me. Personally I miss writing my random thoughts down and just hitting publish post. Not the greatest editing skills haha. But a rant and a ramble is what I am good for.

Heres to another year gone.

belle

Hey Everyone,

Summer is basically over. I have no idea where it went and a small part of me wants it to come back. It went way to fast. However I move in to Rez tomorrow at university and I am extremely excited, scared, nervous, sad, but mostly excited. I cannot wait for the most part. I want to meet new people make new friend. Yet I also want time to go slower, I am not 100% prepared to leave home yet. I still don't know where I stand with this blog. I don't want to delete it because I still have the urge to write a post here and there. However I do feel less pressure to post and there is basically no guilt when I don't post which is nice. It is no longer a chore. I went to New York City with my family last week and being there I wanted to blog about it and it helped to inspire me to get back to posting here again. I don't know if this feeling is going to last and if it does how long. I am not promising anything right now. I am hoping to do a post about New York soon but I know that with moving and university and all it will be tough. I would love to start doing outfit posts but to be honest with you all I am extremely lazy. I don't have a tripod and I don't have anyone to take photos for me. Half the time after I wear an outfit and go out somewhere and think wow this would have been a good place to take a photo I either a) don't have my camera on me or b) think of this after the fact when I get home and see the other photos that I took that day.

Well thats all for now.

belle

Fear

We all have our fears. For some its height, spiders, public speaking or even death. Me, I fear failure.

Failure its a part of life and yet its probably one of my greatest fears. I cannot stand the thought of failing. No matter how hard you try, how hard you work, failure is sometimes inevitable. I can't stand the feeling of knowing that my best just isn't good enough. It is almost impossible for me to put into words how I feel, I am struggling just typing this. It goes further then just failing a test or even a quiz in school but being a failure. Not succceeding in life, and reaching my goals. Perhaps I put too much pressure on myself. I feel like a big part of this for me is not knowing what the future holds. I feel like I talk about this a lot, but its just that I would love to know where I am going to be in the next 5 or even 10 years. Perhaps its not about failure but about making the right choices and knowing that I have done the right thing and have gotten to where I need to be. I wish that I had a crystal ball to know my future, I do not need to know exactly what has happened, more I just need to know that I am going to be okay. I want to reach my goals. I want to make something out of my life. I feel like this internal struggle to become something is eating away at me. For the most part I just want to be happy. I want to have met the goals that I am setting for myself. I feel like not meeting these goals would make me a failure. Perhaps its not about failing but being a failure in the eyes of others. I do not really know. Its confusing. Life is confusing. I wish I had the answers but I don't. No one really does. I am not going to sit here and act like I know what is going to happen. Your guess is as good as mine. I feel like just being myself here has become hard and thats not why I started this blog. I wanted to be able to be myself, but then it turned into this whole other thing and somehow, someway, somewhere I lost who I am. I hate that. I hate that I let that happen. I want to get back to me, this right here. This strange, random, fun loving girl. I may no longer be 16, but 18 is just as great. I just want to let go open up and be me again. I hope that I can. I hope that I can put the cares behind me, the fears and the failures and work forward and move on.

Belle

Getting Older...

Wow! It's hard to believe that summer is almost over. For me it means that in about four weeks I will be moving away from home to go to school. Granted I'm not moving that far. Only about 3 hours away but still its far enough for me. I am very close to my family and I know that I am going to miss them. I am very excited to start school though. I really can't wait to see what September has in store for me. I can barely contain my excitement. Today was a tough day. One of my best friends is leaving in a couple of days for school. She's leaving the country and her school starts earlier then mine. Meaning that tonight we all said good bye to her and had one last hang out session before she leaves. It still doesn't seem real. I can't believe that my little group of friends is being broken up. Its hard. I hope that I will be able to keep in touch with them while we are all off doing our own things in different parts of the world. After spending four years together being practically inseparable its strange to think that we will not be going to class together again next year. I know that everyone feels this way as they are about to start university and I know its time to let go of my high school years as strange as that is. The other day I said I'm going to hang out with my high school friends and I felt incredibly old. Have you ever noticed that you always feel younger then you are. When I was in grade nine the grade twelves seems so old and it was hard for me to picture myself as one of them. Now that time as come and gone and I still in some ways feel like I am in grade nine. When I think of university students I think of people much older then myself and yet here I am about to start university. I am no longer a high school student but a university one. I feel like just when I've come to accept what I am its already over. Getting used to being in grade twelve and then before you know it I was graduating and the year was over. It flew by. It was an amazing year full of good times with friends and classmates. Getting to know my teachers better and being able to focus on subjects that I am really interested in. Grade 12 for me was probably my best year of high school and the one that I most enjoyed. I have no regrets about the past year and I would do everything exactly the same if given the chance. I did everything I wanted to do. I got involved in everything that I wanted to be involved in. That made the difference for me I think. Being able to do everything I loved and accomplish the goals I set for myself at the end of last year. Showing not only myself but everyone else that I could do it and that I was a known figure in the school. It was important to me and while I was often stressed out and looking back I don't really know how I survived. I am glad I did everything that I did because I am a stronger person for it. This past year was one that I will never forget. It was full of great memories and I was able to strengthen my friendships with those who meant the most to me. I know who my real friends are and I am happy with the person that I am. I know who I am. I may not know what I want to do in life right at this very moment or what the future holds or what I will be doing this time next year but I am okay with that because right now I like who I am. It took me a long time to get to this place, but I am happy with who I am. For now thats more then enough.

Love,

Belle

Body Image

Heyy Everyone,

The other day I was on Teen Vogue, and they had a survey about body image, which I decided to take and it got me thinking. The survey asked questions about what you thought about your body and celbs bodys, that sort of thing.

I personally feel that I have a postive body image. I may not like everything about my body, 100% of the time, but for the most part I am okay with my body. I personally feel like you wouldn't be able to find someone who likes every single thing about their body all the time. We all have those days where we hate certain parts of our body.

The media is constantly discussing stars and their weight. They can never win, they gain weight and they are fat, they lose weight and they have an eating disorder, there is never a happy medium. The survey asked what we thought was the best body type, and beside healthy they had Leighton Meester in brackets. I would personally consider her to be on the skinny side. I think that our perception of what is a normal healthy body weight has been affected by the media.

To me stars such as Selina Gomez and Taylor Swift have positive body images. They do not talk badly about their bodies and focus their attention on other more important issues. I hate how the media constantly looks at stars and their weight. Weight to me is just a number. What matters is how you feel about yourself. For me clothes allow me to feel good about myself. When I feel good in what I am wearing my confidence goes way up. It doesn't matter what the number on the scale is.

I find that many of these Teen magazines are very hypocritical. They have articles on the dangers of eating disorders and on have a positive body image. Yet you turn the page and their is a work out plan and a diet waiting for you to try. They are sending girls mixed messages about what they should care about. Don't get me wrong it is important to be healthy. To eat and exercise regularity. But why does exercising have to be running on a track or lifting weights. Why can it not be walking the dog or dancing? We seem to forget that their are other ways of being active. Eating healthy doesn't have to mean cutting out the foods you love. Yet we think diet and automatically its low carb, no sugar and no sweets. Why does eating healthy have to be considered a diet. Diet gives a negative image. Eating healthy doesn't mean cutting things out or eating less. To me at least it means eating more fruits and vegetables and eating fast food less often.

I think as girls we are hardest on ourselves and on each other. Why does it matter what size I wear. Or what size my friends wear? I think that we need to be less harsh on each other and recognize that everyone is beautiful in their own way. I have seen girls buy clothes a size too small for the fear of going up a size and in hopes of fitting into it later on. Why do we do that. What is this fear of buying clothes that fit. Why does it matter what the number on the tag says. When did the number become more important then the way we feel in the clothes.

We realize that their are body image issues among teen girls. Yet we do nothing to change it. Magazines do a feature on it and yet they still put work out routines in the same issue. Its something that I don't think is going to change unless we change. Girls need to realize that they are worth more then just the numbers, the number of their weight and the number on the tag. We need to stop judging other girls and realize the beauty in everyone. If everyone takes a stand things will begin to change.

Belle.

Guilty Pleasures

Hey Everyone,

We all have them those guilty pleasures that we hate to admit but we love to watch. Lately for me its been Pretty Little Liars. However I have to say these four girls have some really great clothes which I have been giving me lots of inspiration lately.

I love Aria (the one in the dress and black jacket) and Hanna's (the one in the dress and blue cardigan) style's the best so far.

This is my favourite outfit so far. I love the whole combination of the boots, dress and jacket. I really want to get a pair of boots like this, however stores aren't really carrying boots now. Have to wait until closer to fall I guess.

This is what the girls wore to their friend's funeral. I love Aria's tights.

The show so far has been pretty good. The plot line is pretty interesting and I am excited to see it unfold, that being said I wouldn't replace any of my regular fall shows for it. (I currently watch about 5 or 6 tv shows a week during prime tv time). However it's a great summer show. Check it out if you have the chance.

Belle

New Beginnings and a Tag of sorts

Hey Everyone,

Its that time of year again... exam time! It is hard to believe that I am in my last year of high school. Writing what will be my last set of high school exams. Onto bigger and better things. It has yet to hit me that I am almost done high school and that I will be leaving my beloved school of 6 years ( I started there in grade 7). I will miss all of my amazing teachers most of which are more then just teachers, but also mentors and friends. They are people I knew that I could go to with any problem, no matter how big or small. They would always be ready and willing to help me. My classmates, some of whom I've known since grade 7 others, more recently. We have become a pretty tight knit group. Not all necessarily best friends but people who I feel comfortable talking to now and again. I will miss the simple everyday things. The routines that I have gotten so used to.

It is weird to think that I will not be going back next year. I will not don my uniform again in September, nor will I be walking those now familiar halls, greeting familiar faces. The one thing that I love about my school and I know I will miss dearly is the community. It is a small school which makes it possible for me to know so many people, not only in my grade but in younger grades. I have been able to make some really great friends with people in grades younger then myself, because we see each other so often in the hallways or at lunch. Teachers who I have never had a class with know me by name, by the simple fact that the school is so small. It has been both a blessing and a curse. I mean rumors spread extremely fast, and everyone knows everything about everyone, but other then that it has been nice. I know that I am rambling on, but the knowledge that high school is done has just begun to hit as I write this. Wow. Hard to believe. I thought it would hit sooner. I totally pegged myself as the one who would be crying about the last day of classes, the last assembly the last whatever. But I didn't. I am sad to leave but ready to move on. I know that next year will bring new challenges, new friends and amazing times. I am excited about the next chapter of my life.

Tess had a great Tag on her blog. I wasn't tagged, but I didn't let that stop me from doing it. Haha. ( I will do anything not to study for exams... including updating my usually unloved blog). I feel like I just invited myself to someones house for dinner. Breaking the rules... oh well. This is me being a rebel. Haha. The questions were just to good to pass up. So here we go. Feel free to rebel with me :) I think the way it works is I answer her questions then make up some of my own, for others to do.

1. For those nights when you eat ice cream out of the carton, you are watching what guilty pleasure TV show?

Generally I always eat ice cream out of the carton. I even write my name on it, so as to keep others (namely my brother) from helping themselves to my ice cream. Usually I grab it when I'm studying. Or when I'm watching a great chick flick and painting my nails. Really anytime is perfect for eating ice cream.

2. If you could have any animal in the zoo as my pet, what would you choose?

Probably a giraffe. They are so cool. Although I don't know how that would fit in the house. More practical (if possible) would be a penguin.

3. What would your daemon be (for you Philip Pullman fans) or what would your patronus be (calling all Potterheads)?
hummm... which animal am I most like. This is tough. I want to say something like a gazelle because they are fast and graceful. I am not fast and I can be kinda clumsy, thats probably not what it would be. One can dream right?
4. What was your favorite childrens book?
The Very Bad Rabbit. It had an orange cover, and I would want it read to me every night for my bedtime story. To the point where I had it memorized but I still wanted to hear it every night.
5. What is the most overrated movie you have ever watched?

This is a tough one. I feel like any of those comedies that people are like OMG that was the funniest movie I have ever seen in my life, then you go and watch it and you don't even laugh.

6. What book character would you like to befriend?

Well a book character that I would like to date is Wes from The Truth About Forever by Sarah Dessen but I realize that is not the question being asked.

Befriend. So many. I always think books are better when I feel like I could be friends with the character.

7. What is your favorite type of cake?

The more chocolate the better.

8. What song to you sing along to in your car when no one is with you?

Pretty much everything, and horribly too might I add. I never know all the words, so its generally me laughing at my self for screwing up the lyrics.

Okay here are some of my questions! I'm not going to tag anyone but leave me a comment if you did do my questions, I would be interested to read your answers.

1. If you could live anywhere in the world where would you live and why?

2. If you could switch places with anyone for a day (dead or alive, real or imaginary) who would it be?

3. If you had to eat one food everyday for the rest of your life what would it be?

4 . If you had to pick a season to live in for one year which would it be? Fall, Winter, Spring, or Summer?

5. What is your go to movie when you are feeling down?

6. If you had to wear one outfit for the rest of the year what would it be?

I hope that everyone has an amazing rest of the weekend.

Good luck with exams if you have any!

Belle

Hi Everyone,

I was reading post secret today when I came across this:

Enjoy!

Belle

Ecuador 2010

Hey Everyone,
This past March I was lucky enough to get to travel with Me to We to Ecuador to help build a Kitchen and Dining Hall in their first 10 by 10 community.

I have always wanted to travel the world and experience for myself the culture of other countries as well as the experience of going and seeing where the money goes to from the charities that I support.

While in Ecuador I learned some very important life changing lessons, that I will carry with me for the rest of my life. We worked with a community to aid them in the building of their Kitchen and Dining Hall for the school. The Kitchen and Dining Hall are very important to the entire community as many of the women come out to cook meals for the school children and are currently cooking in unventilated kitchens with wood stoves, which as you can imagine is not ideal for these women as the kitchen's become filled with smoke. Many of these women carry young children and babies on their back as they are cooking. This is causing many respiratory problems within the community. As well the dining hall contains a hand washing station that will greatly improve hygiene in the community. Many of the children currently eat with their hands, after playing outside all day. By building the kitchen and dining hall Free the Children hopes to teach these communities about the importance of hygiene and nutrition.

We worked closely with the community in what is called a Minga helping to build the dining hall. A Minga is when the community comes together to work together for the good of the community. Everyday there would be a small Minga of around 15 community members to help with the building of the Kitchen, along with us. We worked hard and were able to accomplish a lot in our week with the community.

While in Ecuador we met an amazing and inspiration woman named Maria. Maria was the first indigenous woman to attend university. Many of the girls only attend school to grade seven so her completion of university was a major accomplishment. She was also the youngest president of her community. She works closely with communities and women in order to develop alternative income projects for many of these women.

We were able to visit a womens group where these women sell their knitted goods in order to bring income into their households and help to create a better future for their children. Meeting the womens group showed me how important women are to their families and the running of their households in this culture. They work in the fields, take care of the family chores and children as well as try to earn money for their families. Many of the women in the women's group were well educated for women in Ecuador and it showed me first hand the importance of education and how education for girls can help to break the cycle of poverty.

One of the most important things that I took away from this experience was the importance of community. Everyone was always willing to help each other out and lend a helping hand. They did not expect anything in return. Their values are centered around family and community which is something I believe we are lacking.

This trip for me was only the beginning. On the trip we talked a lot about finding our passion and goal setting. I have set goals for myself for the next three years. We also talked about traveling with intent and what that meant to us. To me it means traveling with open eyes and an open heart. It means experiencing the culture and taking the experiences back with me. I would love in the future to travel and volunteer in other countries. It is one of my dreams to go to Kenya and volunteer with the Mully Children's Family. Free the Children is an amazing organization that was started by Craig Kilburger when he was only 12 years old after he read an article in the newspaper about a 12 year old boy who was killed by the carpet mafia for speaking out against Child Labour.

One thing that I encourage everyone to do, is to Give their 10. Free the Children has a 10 by 10 challenge and the idea behind it is quite simple. We can all do small things everyday to help change the world. Together we can make a difference. Go to giveyourten.com and pledge 10 things that you can do on a daily basis to make the world a better place. Then share your 10 with 10 people and $10 will be donated in your name. The community that I went and visited was a result of the 10 by 10 Challenge.

Here are my ten:

1. Drink water from a re-useable water bottle / mug

2. Turn off the lights

3. Hug, hug, hug

4. Volunteer somewhere new

5. Re-connect with an old friend

6. Read about a new social issue

7. Unplug unused appliances and chargers

8. Shop for vintage clothes

9. Carry a reusable bag

10. Travel somewhere new

Love,
Belle

Canada supports you...

Joannie Rochette.

For those of you who don't know, Joannie's mother passed away two days ago just after she arrived to watch her daughter perform at the Olympics. I have to say that Joannie's skate last night was extremely emotional and the strength that she had is inspiring. She is truly one of my idols. I wish her all the best in the free skate tomorrow and I hope she knows that Canada and the skating community are behind her during this tough time. She is a competitor and a fighter and her mother would be proud. I hope that she has the skate of her life tomorrow, not only for herself but for her mother.

Good luck Joannie and God bless.

Love,
belle

Valentines Day and Olympics

Hi Everyone,

Happy Valentines Day!

I don't have a real valentine, I never actually have, but for some reason I still love the holiday, I still maintain the childhood innocence of it all. Giving cards and candy hearts to friends, wearing red, white and pink and just enjoying the day. My friend and I decided to be valentines this year, I got her these really cute mini food erasers and she gave me a cookie gram!

If I were to get gifts for valentines day here is what I would like (they aren't exactly traditional):

Mod Cloth Fingerless Gloves $15.99

I am ALWAYS freezing. These would be prefect because they are cute and they would allow me to use my fingers. As it is now, typing with mittens or regular gloves, isn't always easy.

Fred Flare Rubber Ducky Ear Buds $ 15

I have a thing for rubber duckies. I have a sparkly key chain that I love and had to have as soon as I saw it. Next I want rubber ducky pjs.

Fred Flare Necklace $44

I love the quirkiness of this necklace, I just can't explain it. I love the randomness!

Mini Cupcake Lip gloss -Fred Flare $18










These are so cute! I have a thing for food like products. I love them. I have one, that I got at the toy store where I work. But of course they are sold by Fred Flare!

Its not too long of a list but its just a taste of what I like. Cupcakes and chocolate are always appreciated.

From Cupcakes Take the Cake. I love browsing this blog to see all the amazing cupcakes that people make.

A side note:
I watched the Olympic Opening Ceremonies on Friday! I am so excited to watch the figure skating, I can't wait to cheer Team Canada on. I got myself a pair of the red mittens that everyone seems to be wearing, they are really warm.



I hope that everyone has an amazing Valentines Day. I am going to see the movie Valentines Day tomorrow, I can't wait! Hopefully it will live up to the hype!
Enjoy the day with your sweetheart or friends or family.
Love,
Belle

To Do List

Hey Everyone,
So one thing that I have never done on my blog is a list of guys that I think are hot. My friend B has an album on facebook called the to do list, which I find highly amusing. I thought it would be fun to make my own and share it with you all. Sadly half of them are fictional characters but what can I say, TV is my life. In no particular order:

Ryan Gosling

Canadian and in the Notebook....

The Gossip Girl Guys:

They are half the reason I watch Gossip Girl... the other half is the clothes.

Matt Lanter

I saw him in a movie about figure skating and was like WOW hes hot. I told my friend all about him and she was like well hes yours, I wont even go look, so we will not fight. Then he was on 90210 and she was like wow hes hot, but he was already mine.

Jess:

The only guy Rory was really meant to be with. I hated Dean, didn't mind Logan (he had his moments). Jess was always right for Rory, at least I think he was.

Taylor Lautner:

Yes okay, I like him. I think he's BEAUTIFUL.

Seth Cohen:

Words can not describe my obsession with Seth. I would rather be Seth then date him. I just think that hes so cool.

Damon:

It has to do with my love of Vampire Diaries. Damon gets some of the best lines, and he is so sexy. Seriously go watch Vampire Diaries.

Leo:

Enough Said.

Brad Pitt- Thelma and Louise

One of my favourite movies. Plus its Brad Pitt.

Well that was my very High School Girl post for you all. I'm sure that I am missing a few people, and that you may not agree with my list. But there you go. It was fun to put together.

I hope everyone has a good week, and the timing of this post was quite good, what with Valentines Day coming up so soon.
Love,
Belle

02/02/10

Hey Everyone,

I can't believe how time flies. I can remember ringing in the New Year like it was yesterday, and now its February and things are piling up, and I just want to curl up and sleep away winter. Spring needs to come faster. It has been a stressful couple of weeks what with play, work and the amount of school work that has been piling up. Trying to work through the mountains of homework seems like a never ending task, hand in one thing get assigned three more. I have broken down more times then I can count. It feels like the weeks all run into each other and that weekends no longer exist, its just one big long week, Monday to Monday. I go from my school uniform to pjs and back again, with a work outfit here or there, and sometimes pjs are replaced with track pants. I miss my clothes and getting dressed.

All that being said, I have still manged to find some time for TV and reading blogs. I'm actually writing a post on mine which is shocking in itself. I am hoping to start outfit posts soon, but as stated above, there really haven't been any. I can't remember the last time I really put effort into getting dressed, and my decision wasn't which school sweater should I wear today, or which over sized t-shirt is more comfortable to sleep in.

I have become OBSESSED with Vampire Diaries. I am loving Stefan and Damon. I like the fact that for the most part the vampires ACT like vampires and while Stefan and Elaina are soul mates they have their ups and downs. Plus the cliffhangers keep me coming back. I hear GLEE is amazing and I am hoping to watch it this summer, when I have more time.

Lately I have been looking at dresses for Prom. I know that I want a long dress with a low back and most likely a jewel tone colour. I really like this one that Taylor Swift is wearing:

(image via instyle.com)

Sorry for the randomness of this post. It was completely all over the place, however I feel like it is a jumping off point, because as of now at least I am writing and sharing some thoughts. Which is all I can ask of myself at this point in time.

Thank you for sticking with me,

Belle

Good Bye Plain Jayne

Hello Everyone,

Today when I logged onto blogger to actually see if I could *gasp* work on a post. I noticed that Plain Jayne announced her last post forever, and that her blog is no longer online. I was actually pretty upset to hear the news as I loved that blog quite dearly, and read it often. While I posted comments often I never spoke with the author directly, and could think of no other way to contact her then this. I am sorry to see her blog go, it was a regular read of mine for over a year now, and has inspired me in many ways. Plain Jayne you will be missed.

I will have an outfit post soon. I have been pretty busy with school (I know excuses! I am sorry!) and I am a bit sick, so I think I will go and curl up with my tea and watch some bad TV... Teen Mom anyone? Haha I love that show, my guilty pleasure among other things.

I will try to post something with substance soon... Don't give up hope yet.

Love
Belle

Back...

Hey Everyone,

I feel horrible that I have left this blog alone for so long, a combination of being busy and not sure of what direction I want to take. I feel like my life is being pulled in a thousand different directions. I love this blog and I want to continue it, trust me I haven't forgotten but I don't want to only half write it. If I am going to write this blog I want to put my all into it. I hate only half doing things and I just felt like I couldn't give enough time to it, so it was just easier not to write at all. Time just seems to fly by and before I knew it 2009 was coming to an end and 2010 was around the corner. I hope that 2010 brings me many new and wonderful memories and friends. It will be a year of change with leaving high school behind and starting university in the fall. I am so excited and I can't wait.

I am hoping to put more time and effort into this blog, I still do read so many blogs and I am constantly on Weardrobe (not that I have my own account). Many blogs continue to inspire me and make me miss mine. I hope that my long break away from my blog has left me refreshed and ready to start posting again. I am sure that many of you understand.

I am hoping to start outfit posts but it was hard for me to post while I felt like my style was changing and being influenced by so many of you. I continue to add to my wardrobe and I am starting to shy away from a lot of my old clothes. I know that I have a long way to go and I am not always the most confident person. I would like to get away from this and be more bold and daring with my outfits this year. It also doesn't help that I wear a uniform to school so most days I go from pajamas to my uniform to back to either my pajamas or track pants. Weekends (if then) are really the only time when I get to really dress for myself.

I am hoping that this post will be the launch (or relaunch) of this blog, and that I will get back on track with my posts.
Love,
Belle

2010

New Years 2010
Where did you go on New Years?: my place
Who were you with?: besties
Did you kiss anyone at midnight?: haha ohhh j
Did you make any resolutions?: not at new years

Love Life
Did you go out with anyone?:nope
Did YOU break up with anyone?: nope
Did you get anything for Valentine's day? nothinggg
Did you meet anyone special?: yes
Did you fall in love?: ....
Are You still with him/her?: n/a

Friends & Enemies
Did you meet any new friends this year?: yess
Did any of your friendships end?: yes
Did you dislike anyone?: yes
Did you make any new enemies?: unspoken ones i guess
Did you resolve any fights?: yes
Who did you grow apart from?: famfriends, old friends, skating friends
Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?: sometimes depends who

Birthday; Seventeen
Did you have a cake? course, cake = birthday haha
What did you do for your birthday? nothing special, it landed on another holiday this year
Did you have a party?: nopee
Did you get any presents?: yes i did
If so what was the best thing you got?: gym membership (haha i actually wanted it)

Personal;
Did you change at all this year?: of course
Did you dye your hair?: highlighted
Did you get your hair cut?: not like majorly, but like trims yes
Did you change your style?: haha my hair's always the same
Were you in school?: yes
Did you get good grades?: yupp
Did you have a job?: skatingg and toy storee
Did you drive?: yesss sir
Did you own a car?: nope
Did anyone close to you give birth?: no
Did you move at all?: no
Did you go on any vacations?: yes
Did you leave the country at all?: yes
Would you change anything about yourself now?:pretty happy with myself right at this moment

Overall
Is 2009 a good year?: nothing really horrible sticks out in my mind
Did 2009 bring any new insights? of course
Do you think 2010 will top 2009?: yes, its time to graduate and go to university
If you could relive any moment which would you choose? I can't even pick one,

Confessions; I...
(x ) stayed single for the whole year
() made out in/on a car
() kissed in the snow
(x) celebrated Halloween
( ) kissed in the rain
(x ) had your heart broken
() broke someone else's heart
(x ) had a stalker
( ) mooned someone
() went over the minutes on your cell phone....
(x) had a good relationship with someone ....
( ) someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) lost a baby
(x) had/have a relationship with someone you'll never forget
(x) done something you've regretted
() lost faith in love
( ) kissed under mistletoe

school*
(x ) took an honors/advanced class
( ) broke the dress code
( ) sent to the principles office for misbehavior
(x) got straight A's
(x) met one teacher you really like
( x) met one teacher you really hated
( ) failed a class
(x) skipped school
(x) did something you were proud of
(x) discovered a new talent
(x) proved yourself an idiot
(x) embarrassed yourself in front of the class
( ) fell in love with a teacher
( ) intentionally tripped someone at school
( ) got lead in the school play
( ) made a varsity team
(x) were involved in something you'll never forget

things to do*
( ) painted a picture
() wrote a poem
(x ) ran a mile
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
(x) went to a sleepover
() went camping
() threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
( x) visited a foreign country
(x) cut in a line of waiting people
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren't
(x) partied to celebrate the new year
(x) cooked a disastrous meal
( ) lost something/someone important to you
(x) lied about how old you were
( x) prank called someone

...more?*
[x]broke a promise
[x] fallen out of love
[x] lied
[x] went behind your parents back
[x ] cried over a broken heart
[x] disappointed someone close
[x] hid a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[ ] kissed in the rain
[ ] slept under the stars
[ ] kept your new years resolution
[x] forgot your new years resolution
[ x] met someone who changed your life
[ ] met one of your idols
[x] changed your outlook on life
[x] sat home all day doing nothing
[] pretended to be sick
[x] left the country
[] almost died
[x] given up something important to you
[] lost something expensive
[x] learned something new about yourself
[x] tried something you normally wouldnt try and liked it
[x] made a change in your life
[x] found out who your true friends were
[x] met great people
[x] stayed up til sunrise
[x] Cried over the silliest thing
[x] was never home on weekends
[ ] got into a car accident
[x] had friends who were drifting away from you
[ ]had someone close to you die
[] had a high cell phone bill
[] spent most of your money on food
[ ] had a fist fight
[]went to the beach with your best friend
[ ] saw a celebrity
[x] gotten sick
[ ] liked more than 5 people at the same time
[x] became closer with alot of people

HONEST Q&A
1. Have you had any relationships this year? yes
2. Have you had your birthday yet? yes?
3. Kissed two people in the same night? nope
4. Pulled an all nighter? summer days
5. Puked at all? yup
6. Went Camping? not this year
7. Bought something(s): Of course
8. Met someone special? yes
9. Been out of the country? yes
10. What are you thinking about? how much happened this year, how much seems like a blur and how much i forget
Random*
1.) Hugged someone? of course
2.) Slept in someone elses bed? yes
3.) Got a job? yes
4.) Loaned out money? nope... well to the broski
5.) Gotten in a car accident? nope
6.) Gone over your mobile phone bill? nope
7.) Done something you regret? yes

Love Life*
01. Have you ever been in love this year? --
02. Do you believe in love? yes
03. Why did your LAST relationship fail?
04. This year have you ever been heartbroken? yes
05. This year have you broken someone's heart: hopefully not,
06. This year have you ever fallen for your best friend? nope
07. Are you afraid of commitment? no

Rebel*
01. Have you done drugs this year? no
02. Have you been kicked out of a store this year? no
03. Have you shop lifted this year? no
04. This year have you gotten a detention? nope
05. Have you cheated on a test this year? nope
06. Have you raced this year? yes in track :P
07. This year have you broken the law? perhaps one or two nothing major
08. Have you lied to your parent(s) this year? probs

Overall 2009 was an amazing year and I can't wait to see what 2010 holds for me. I know it is going to be a year full of change and new exciting adventures which I hope to share more of with you. I know that I haven't been the greatest blogger lately and I would really like to post more often. I think that over the holiday I have gotten back into the blogging world and I know what direction I want this blog to take, but as always there are no rules and no guidelines. Its a no strings attached approach. I hope that you all have an amazing new year.

Belle